Back to Depressed Again..I'm So Lonely With Bleeding Heart..

Im back to depressed again..
I just cry and cry and cry uncontrollable..:(
My heart is still feeling so painful..still bleeding even after a week..
i cant imagine how am i gona live without him in my life anymore..
i feel so lonely..so miserable..im all alone now:(
hiding in the corner of my room..
i just wana bury my face into the pillow..
if can,i dun wana wake up anymore..
so that i wont have to feel this painful feeling everyday..
tears after tears rolling into the pillow..
i could only hug my beloved dolls and no one else..
where is love in this world..
i just want to love and be loved..why is it so hard??:(
i have been deprived of love since young..
when can i get love at last or will i ever get,i wonder..
this world is just so cruel..
my heart has been stabbed again and again by love..
why dun just let me die then..:(
seeing his handsome pics in spore in facebook..
makes me feel like wana hug him..
but how can i do that anymore..
who am i to him now..
im no more urs..u dun love me anymore:(
all i want now is to see him..
wana see him for 1 last time..
can i at least hug u for the last time?:(
feel the warmthness of ur body and feeling safe in ur arms..
i dun even knw whether i will experience that again in the future..
im so lonely..all i want is to see u for 1 last time..can i?:(