My 23rd Birthday..The Good and The Bad

Well firstly, I would to say thx to Debbie, my dear Simon and Tong for making my birthday a memorable one:)
At first,I thought my birthday this yr was the worst birthday ever but u guys made up my bad birthday..really thx to all of u:)

firstly,lemme tell u why I thought the birthday this time was one of the worst..
on my birthday itself,i got kena hentam by Lee Jue Ying,the bpysch dept for making booking changes last min..she didnt really scold me but her beh syok face and her voice tone was really annoying..i know it was our fault for making late changes..but pls la not on my bday la:(
that also bcoz i teman my groupmate..i asked her to go to talk to the admin ppl la since i have already go to shop to print out the poster and everything..but she refused..:(
i got somehow irritated by how introverted she is..just to ask the dept ppl to chop also u scared ah??:( or she was depending on me since i teman her to go so tht she doesnt have to ask!:(

then after that, we went to DSA to chop poster..I asked my groupmate to go in and ask the sir to shop but she refused again!she even asked whether she should go in with me!wtf!!:(
i already teman u to ask admin ppl and kena hentam,and now u asked me whether u should come in with me ah!!
so we went in..i said"excuse me,sir..""he interrupted."pls dun say excuse me..say good afternoon or something like that!" with that annoying tone of voice!:( then i said,"ok sorry,sir..good afternoon. may i know how do we get a chop for the poster?"
then he said,"ok, RM10!" i was like omg RM10??i stood there stunned for quite some time..
then he looked and me and showed me the file of the other poster documents..he said,"nah, u see..i think im kidding u ah..u see the other ppl also pay RM10 deposit to chop for the poster!"
i was thinking..oh RM10 DEPOSIT..sigh ok..i said "oh ok,sir..so sorry sir..we didnt know the procedure..we didnt know we need to pay RM10 deposit". so my groupmate paid the RM10.
then he asked,"so where is the photocopy of the poster?" i was stunned once again..huh?wat photocopy?? "er..sorry sir,we didnt bring the photocopy this time.coz we really dun know of the procedure since this is our 1st time." then he shouted,"so wat do u think u should do??go and photostat now la!!there is a free photostat machine outside here..faster go go photostat!"
wtf..and so we went to photostat and handed him the photocopy..he took and a pen and tried to write something and when his pen got no ink to come out,he still continue shaking and scribble roughly!!even his pen also doesnt like his attitude!!haha:p
there we go..i got kena hentam 2nd time in a row!!on my birthday itself!!thx but no thx to my groupmate who is so coward to go and ask them and i had to teman her instead!!@#$%

so after i went to Career Guidance class.an old friend of mine msg me whether i have any plan on my bday nite.i replied him and said not sure yet coz i was expecting my bf to do a surprise for me..who knows..then he said..oklah then wait for ur bf's msg 1st la..
after class,my bf said he cant come over to celebrate with me coz tong cant fetch him:(
so okla nvm at least i can celebrate with my friend in mid valley la..i dun wana have my dinner alone on my birthday of course!:(
then i send msg to my friend and said ..okla my bf cant celebrate with me tonight..we can meet at mid valley at 8pm la:)
then i waited for his reply..so long also no reply..until 8pm..no reply samor..i called him also didnt pick up the phone!i was like..wat the hell..r u going to mid valley or not??:(
since he didnt reply,so i also went to mid valley alone la..i was like so geram and disappointed til no words can describe redi:(
thx god,when i was in kl sentral waiting for komuter to go to mid valley, debbie's bf called and wished me happy birthday..then he asked me where was i since its so noisy in the background..
i told him im in kl sentral now going to mid valley and told him wat happen..then he said.. hah? then u going to mid valley alone ah?? aiyo nvmla,i can ask debbie to teman u to eat dinner..
haha i almost forgotten tht debbie is also in mid valley helping his bf in hp shop..
wah haha at least got someone to teman me to eat dinner and i wont be lonely on my bday nite:)
debbie and i ate in nando's peri peri chicken and she belanja me:)
after tht,her bf send me back home..haha ok quite satisfied also tht nite:)
debbie made up my bad day..thx a lot,debbie!=)

ok fast fwd to today..a few days ago,my bf said he will celebrate with me and tong on sun night..
so i was very happy and expecting something happy to happened today..
then around 5pm,he msg me and said tht he might not be able to have dinner with me..he will only come to my place for a while only..i was like wtf!! disappointed again!!:(
hey tht day i already kena disappointed by my fren..pls dun disappoint me again this time la:(
i got so sad..i actually cried after that..sigh dun knw la..nowadays i always pms..since its almost tht time of the month again:( so i sat there thinking and sob and cry..:(
i was thinking..im so disappointed..i also wana have nice bday experience like everyone else:(
but around 7pm something..he called me and said they were downstairs redi waiting and asked me to get dressed up quickly..haha ok now im happy coz at least he is gona do something althou its last min:p and so i quickly and dressed up and applied make up and all (its not quick..i didnt know i spent 40min to do all that..hehe sorryloh:p)
then tong dropped us in Secret Recipe in PBD..:)

i was like yay!nice meal at last!im deprived of delicious food!:p
i ordered something dun knw call wat but its dory fish with some sauce..very delicious!yum yum:p plus,oreo milkshake..oolala..;) we also ordered vienna brownies..yummy:)
so we start chating and eating..until the part where he said i dun have analytical skill enough and im suitable to become a secretary only!!wat the hell!!:(
i think its very insulting..and i actually cried a bit but tried to tahan it coz dun wana ruin the dinner:( pls la..dun la tell bout interview stuffs and how bad i am on my bday dinner:(
im ur gf and pls talk to me like ur gf la..im not ur friend or ur employees..u dun knw how to talk properly to ur gf ah??:(
if u say me like tht,then let me tel u something honestly..
i think u really dun knw how to talk to ur gf on a romantic dinner..
u still put on that serious working face instead of the role of a bf..
u dun knw how to be romantic and please a lady..
no doubt,i think u r a very good employee but when it comes to as a bf..
although u r not the worst,u r always a disappointment:(
i dun knw whether my expectation is too high or wat..
but my expectation always meet disappointment:(
so now i think i shouldnt expect too much i guess..
i suggest u see how the other bfs treat and talk to their gfs..
i also envy how loving debbie's bf is..how i wish my bf is like this:(

the sad thing is my own bf cant even see my strengths and can only see my weakness..
u said only those u care for me will tell me bout my weaknesses..okla i accept that..
but u said the same thing like wat my ex said..pls dun remind me bout him la:(
im very sad tht my own bf cant see the strenghts inside me..all he sees in his eyes is my flaws only..well,im not as weak as wat u think..believe me,u really dun knw me well enough..
can i at least can get a praise or recognition for something good that i have??
can u pls say something tht can make me feel better and not feel depressed about it?:(
i have been belittled by mum for 23yrs and i had had enough low esteem..
pls dun make my self esteem become lower..:(

all i want is to hear the word "i love you" from your mouth..
show that u care for me..treat me like a gf and make me feel special..
i just wana spend some time quality with us together..
can u even recall when was the last time we go out dating??:(
it has been months we go out together..
how i wish i can have that special feeling again..

hmm..aiii...dun knw wat crap am i typing la..
shouldnt i be thankful for u making the effort to come celebrate my bday??
sorry la..i think im getting pms so my mood is a bit out:(
btw thx for ur lovey dovey red soft toy:) i like it very much..
wish u see u soon and spend time with u..
i love u,Simon...