If Only I Disappear One Day..

today is a very sad day..my heart is bleeding and so painful..:(
i just wanted to see him coz i miss him too much..
but i was given cold shoulder and mistreated..
it's so painful to see someone u love to treat u so cold:(
have i done anything wrong?wat did i do to deserve such treatment??:(
i'm just like anybody else longing for love and human's contact..is that wrong??
my heart yearning for two ways communication, a hug, a pat on my shoulder, and a sincere smile..
but all i always get back in return is rejection and avoidance..
since small, i was rejected by mum,rejected in life and now rejected by my loved one:(
never before my heart is properly fulfilled with love..
why?why am i so unlucky??
other people could get wat they want although their personality sucks..
why me..i dont do anything wrong and why cant i get wat i want??:(
it really hurts..tears keep on streaming on my cheeks..
if only 1 day i would disappear..take away my loneliness and suffering..
u dun have to see my face anymore and lessen ur burden..
i wish i would be taken away into another world where loneliness is non-existent there and the world is full of love and i dun have to suffer anymore..
my life is now meaningless like black and white..:(
all i want is love but seems like i'm always alone
i dun wana die alone but long can i last?:(